The Core

Journal #8

Wed, 27 Jun 2012 14:33:54 -0400

This is from my personal journal I used for English II this year. The topic was to write about a tough decision we were forced to make, and this is what I wrote. -

The toughest decision I made was to break a heart, not knowing it would break my own. I tore apart an innocent heart because I wasn’t willing to let that person be driven by my influence. She was young and timid, fragile and beautiful. She gave me her heart as I unknowingly gave mine in return. But as the days passed I noticed that she was adopting my bad traits. Her actions changed and she became more and more uncaring, almost so that she didn’t care about me. I couldn’t let it happen. So one day I told her it would be best if we went our separate ways. That’s when I realized she as more attached to me than I thought. She began to cry and question my actions as those before her, blaming herself and stating she would change. But she couldn’t be herself if I was around. As we said our goodbyes and began cutting off connection with each other I began to feel it. The hollowness inside that was placed where my heart lay. A feeling of want blooming from loneliness, and self-hatred for doing it. Now that she was gone all I could think of was getting her back. So I began to reestablish contact with her. And as expected I got hostility in return. I took all of her anger and rage, I deserved it for what I had done to her. She was pure and I corrupted her, led her on a path I should have never taken myself. She let it all out and we grew close again, sharing stories and secrets. I fixed her heart and she fixed mine. And to be honest we are closer now than ever before. And though I regret leaving, I would’ve regretted it more if I never tried to get her back.

I’d rather be the nice guy.

Tue, 26 Jun 2012 22:46:01 -0400

I’d rather be the nice guy.

Why?

Fri, 15 Jun 2012 05:35:29 -0400

People constantly ask why things seem to happen the way they do. How nothing in life is ever given without something else being taken away. I believe the reason for this happening is that if we were to be given everything we would not know hardship, we would not have the will to fight for what we want and what is precious to us. Throughout every person’s life there are points where they believe that everything is going wrong, so much that they refuse to face their own reality and find some way to escape it. For me, hell I say live life and take what it throws at you in stride. Nothing that happens is worth letting everything you still have go just to escape what you don’t want to accept.

fuckyeahtattoos: They called me Spineless so I had to prove...

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 02:02:25 -0400

fuckyeahtattoos:

They called me Spineless so I had to prove them wrong

visualamor: If you lose yourself, could you take me too? Jaclyn...

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 01:51:11 -0400

visualamor:

If you lose yourself, could you take me too?

Jaclyn Réhe

ticopolotatuado: THEO MINDELL at SPIDER MURPHY’S

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 01:47:40 -0400

ticopolotatuado:

THEO MINDELL at SPIDER MURPHY’S

aplaceformythings: Owl Shin piece lined tonight! #tattoos...

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 01:45:06 -0400

aplaceformythings:

Owl Shin piece lined tonight! #tattoos #inprogress @barton_thehivemind (Taken with instagram)

nevver: Tattoo You

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 01:38:56 -0400

nevver:

Tattoo You

A Victim of Convenience: For Aria, who wants to be a poet

Mon, 11 Jun 2012 21:31:38 -0400

A Victim of Convenience: For Aria, who wants to be a poet:

victim-of-convenience:

We weren’t meant to live this way
these hollowed hearts, these sorrowed souls
Time won’t dull what cuts us, love
and faith could never fill these holes
Behind the polished posturing
between each drug-store-perfumed line
the fear and abstract emptiness
still beg to be defined

Instead, we carve out…

Photo

Mon, 11 Jun 2012 20:54:35 -0400

vexred: Herb Auerbach

Mon, 11 Jun 2012 20:37:24 -0400

vexred:

Herb Auerbach

First post :D

Mon, 11 Jun 2012 18:01:15 -0400

First post :D